Never Want to Lose You All
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Dear Diary,
I am getting nervous. Nervous about this journey I have embarked on by myself. I am worried about the possibility of failure and even success but most of all I am nervous about my sanity and losing everything after all this hard work.
This past couple of months after my social media hiatus have been incredible. I came back to writing and sharing my personal story with all of you and quickly realized how fantastic everyone that follows my social media platforms or blog are. You all make me who I am and with that comes the type of crippling fear every new blogger suffers from. What is next and when might this all end?
Everything I have right now, I earned but would not have without the incredible support of my odd gang. I took this plunge to do something that I genuinely enjoy, and although everything in my body continues to try to hinder me, I continue to keep fighting. I refuse to admit that I might not be good enough and that I do not deserve to have a voice. I would rather choose to persevere and enjoy this thing that I have wanted for so long. To finally have a voice, albeit a very small one.
Dear Diary,
This blog post is to myself... to remind myself of why I began this journey. This odd little girl is nervous and brand new to this, and sometimes that can be scary... but the terrifying thing in life is giving up when you honestly had a chance to fight through...
Always,
The Odd Girl